I don't know what part of the world are you from, but here in Poland, ordinary 400W Bi-Facial panel costs around $80/pc, when buying from wholesaler which are plenty and accessible even to non-companies (as a proof, I did buy 4pcs myself). And if you buy in bulk, it can even be $50/pc.
But boy how much the mounting system costs - it's at least 3 times the cost of the panes if you buy them in 2xN or 4xN bulk and I'm excluding labor here.
I can either struggle for the next 30 years with whatever I wished I was doing, and be always angry at myself, others, significant other and family, or I can take meds, bear the consequences (side effects really), but be happy for the moments where they do help and I can actually do what I wished for.
Took me almost 10 years to come to that conclusion, so take your time, but once I started my therapy and medication I was so angry at myself for not doing it earlier that it took me almost 2 weeks to shake out of it.
Feel free to check my other comment in my profile that describes my troubles.
Do you really believe there is only one kind of OCD, specifically one you described?
I'm sorry to tell you, but both ADHD and OCD exist on a spectrum. Furthermore, ADHD like symptoms can be caused through other illness than actual dopamine deficiency.
There are many kinds of OCD! There are zero kinds of OCD that aren't a disorder. A helpful mnemonic is: you could imagine OCD stands for "obsessive compulsive disorder".
"Some people", "commonly" already implies a variety in symptoms and manifestations. But by definition, they all cause clinically significant impairment, or distress.
What's your general region you live in if I may ask?
And yeah, I've read it. I'm happy it got better for you. (not saying that sarcastically, I just have trouble with tone over text) How hard was the process for you to get it diagnosed?
The default city, but the process was that I paid out of pocket for psychological diagnosis and then used that to talk with psychiatrist. It seems to be the "easiest" route to be taken seriously, rather than drug-seeker.
And other comments - you NEED to look for people who specialize in ADHD specifically, both on psychologist and psychiatrist side. I got SNRI only because the doc said "it's used as last resort for ADHD, perhaps it will help you" - no, it does shit nothing for ADHD in my case. But it did help with many other things so I'm still grateful for that.
Also, keep in mind that non-stimulants also do work, but they don't work _immediately_ and that requires actual regime to make know whether they work on you.
Gotcha, thanks. (tbh I don't know anyone on NFZ anyway, if I wanted to meet a psychologist, I'd wait close to 300 days and I'm in one of major cities.)
I have to add my 5 cents to that because I've experienced something I've not seen anyone else experience and I think it might be worth to share it with others that might struggle with the same.
I had various neurological issues for the past 10 years, some of them common like visual migraine auras, GAD, panic attacks, and some of the less known and frankly hard to describe - visual snow, poor night vision, problems with adapting to light/dark places, constant fatigue, over stimulation (pins and needles over the whole body when overheating, as an example). On top of that, ADHD and I was really afraid of any and all kinds of medication, especially mind altering ones.
At one moment, I was in a really bad shape and place mentally and I decided to get professional help and start medicating, as I felt nothing else can help me anymore. And believe me, I did try all kinds of therapies, exercising (how do you do it with constant fatigue?), mindfulness and meditation (closing eyes when stressed was horrible experience for me!), nothing helped.
Look, you can tell me it's placebo or whatever, but I started on SNRIs and later on stimulants for ADHD. It took me _2 weeks_, to cure 80% of my neurological issues. It was almost like someone flipped a light switch in my nervous system. I still can't fully believe it or even try to understand, but my theory is that I've been genetically destined to have these problems, and "just trying hard enough" was not enough and would've never been enough.
SNRIs cured my neurological issues, and stimulants like Ritalin gave me willpower to start making positive changes and for the first time - start making habits. I believe, at least in my case, it would've been impossible without medication, or it would take me half my life to get to a place where I would've felt comfortable with myself and my problems. I believe my life is too short to fight with all of these issues alone, and I'm really glad I did start that.
tl;dr: medication gave me my life back, not just from ADHD but from variety of other issues, that ADHD just exacerbated. Please do try medication, it's not a one way door and we humans don't have infinite willpower to deal with all the issues on their own.
In a similar vein to "try medication", I'd like to add "don't write all medication off after one doesn't work". The first seven medications I tried had basically negligible effects, and then the eighth one I tried (also an SNRI) had absolutely life changing effects within hours. I had the same moment where it seemed like a switch flipped and I couldn't believe the difference one medication could make.
A big realization I had was that doctors don't necessarily start by prescribing the medication that's most likely to help, they prescribe the one that's got the highest expected benefit to negative side effect ratio.
Absolutely. If you're having problems, please consult a doctor! Medicine can't fix everything, but there's a whole lot that a good doctor can help with.
If you had diabetes, you wouldn't feel hesitant to take insulin. It's not a moral failure. It doesn't mean you're weak or bad or a disappointment. It just means you have a medical issue that can be treated. Well, same here.
I always thought any kind of SSRI or alike will make it much worse, as many people on reddit indicate they caused it for them.
I seem to be in opposite camp where SNRI actually lift like majority of visual snow syndrome, but that was not the only syndrome I had. I believe I had something more like HPPD.
Believe me, I was scared as hell as I thought these meds will make it worse, and I am really glad now that I did try them and they did work for me. I still have a really small amount of snowing, but I can ignore it entirely and carry on with my life.
Thank you, that's good to hear and quite surprising to me - I have a friend with VSS, and so far they've just been told that there is no known treatment for it. This will be something to look into I think.
Something that helped with my anxiety is changing the way I think about my physical and mental issues where even if I have some underlying conditions causing anxiety, it should not define how I feel about it because I am in the control of how I feel. Even if you have tinnitus, and it causes you great discomfort, you must convince yourself that tinnitus does not define how you feel about it, that it does not cause continous issues, and that worrying and digging on the causes of it can actually make it worse because our brains are stupid sometimes.
It does help, but you must push through it. Your body will give you signals that its not ok, but you must try to ignore it, and then you may actually feel better, even if your underlying causes did not change.
As I worked adjacent to people who ran thousands of jobs in ActiveBatch - that software indeed was very simple to use and its GUI might have been awesome - but it's been double edged sword where if you have hundreds of people working on it - it becomes maintenance nightmare and promoting changes between environments was non-existent, causing multiple incidents.
Mind you, it might have been just culture at that place, but I don't think this is as good of an example as you make it be. Sure, it was easy to get started and made the life easier at the beginning, but running it at scale was not in any way easy.
How long back are you talking about? Do you remember what version? When I was working there, there were improvements made to "Change Management" ie. promoting changes from Test -> Production. After I left I heard the improvements continued. When I was there, it was a ~50 person company that was very focused so this was a pain point they were well aware of.
Sorry to break your bubble, but this is how people normally live on countrysides / small villages, at least in my country. Killing livestock animals is everyday thing and no one bats an eye.
Hell, even killing new born kittens / puppies is considered by some normal thing, if they breed uncontrolled (even if they could just... castrate / neuter them [not sure which is the right word for it, I'm not native]).
After all how is it different from a full grown chicken, other than the fact you don't normally eat cats/dogs?
Yep fully agree. I live in a small village near a country estate and lots of the people here kill and pluck their own foul, including myself. The ones that dont, have no issue with it.
When there is a shoot on the estate we request some of the birds and then through the season we regularly come home from work to find braces of dead pheasants hanging on our front door. We pluck them and then roast or make stews out of them and they are delicious.
It is common to walk through the village after a shoot and see dead birds hanging from most of the doors. Nobody complains or thinks it is strange, in fact everybody looks forward to the free meat!
Because there are plenty of people who don't kill/eat certain animals but do slaughter other animals. This person in the thread described their new love for chickens, but I have a good feeling that they probably still eat beef or pork. But the "solution" to the vegan problem cannot be to surround everyone with farm animals, because when that was true for most people (100+ years ago), everyone ate meat that they killed themselves.
I think any good person can understand and empathize with the modern day practices of factory farming and meat production, but the solutions coming from vegans are also untenable in the face of human history. We can move away from unethical farming practices without removing meat from our diets and ignoring the absolutely huge benefits of eating meat as humans.
Because killing farm animals is considered a norm in almost all places who had done that since generations.
If you would be surrounded by chickens, livestock and other farm animals and watching them getting butchered was your daily bread as a child, why would you reconsider when you would grow up? It literally put food on your table, and besides home grown farm animals taste A LOT better (speaking from experience, but never grown them myself, any meat product I buy from the Walmart alikes tastes much worse).
Its only when you never witnessed death of any kind that you become so sensitive to it. Once it becomes normal (of course, I talk about farm animals here only) it's really hard to see advocates for vegetarianism as some sort of zealots.
And personally? What's the difference if they die of natural causes vs. just butchering them when the time is right? If you raised them ethically and they were generally happy, then for these animals its just... How it would end anyway? If you compare that to industrial farming, and if it was the only way to get meat sure I would consider being vege instead, its horrible how they are kept and treated. But for my own raised animals? Its a cycle of life.
People keep saying it's normal etc but then you'll notice everywhere it's always the poor people who end up doing the slaughtering while rich people get to pretend it doesn't happen.
I'm not sure that being desensitised is a good argument. People can become desensitised to a lot of things, like slavery or other abuse. That doesn't make it ok.
The difference is factory farming really. I don't think eating meat is wrong, per se. (But I do think a lot of people wouldn't miss meat if they tried it, especially the only eats chicken breast type). But factory farming is disgusting.
Fully agreed on factory farming. Not only is it cruel and unethical, but the quality is also much worse making vegetables actually a pretty good alternative.
On that note, let me tell you how home grown vegetables are also a lot better than... ;)
Well, from a philosophical point of view, vegetarian movement is unfair for the plants
Plants that are responsible of lots and lots of human well-being and as life beings deserve to be treated with a similar respect that we use with other organisms.
Incidentally is also bad for human health
Yes, it is. Those articles that claim that you can live on a strict vegetarian diet without any bad consequences for your health are either lying, incomplete or based in pseudoscience. Is basically a religious movement.
I have grown up on a purely vegetarian diet since I was born and I don't have any health problems from that. I know anecdotal evidence is usually not great and I will admit it is harder to maintain a healthy diet whilst vegetarian (but not too much), in this case it surely cannot be true that you can't live on a vegetarian diet without any bad consequences if I have done that?
I've been in such communities and they do bat an eye actually. If people enjoyed it then rich western people would be doing it for fun. Funny that I don't see the "kill your own goat" experience being sold in tourist packages.
No, but I'm well aware disgusting people exist. People abuse other people, but we generally agree this isn't a good thing. Also, pulling a trigger from afar isn't the same thing. I also wonder how many of those "real men" lose sleep after the experience. Emperor's new clothes comes to mind.
You seem incredibly closed to the fact that lots of very normal and kind people are fine with killing animals for food without issue. I assure you, there are many millions of them around the world.
I think there is a shade of grey between enjoying it and never doing because animals are another living being that don't deserve it.
If you are doing it as part of putting a good tasting food on the table, I would say no, no one bats an eye, but I suppose they don't enjoy the process too - it's messy process and requiers some safety considerations too like making sure your meat doesn't have any parasites.
I don't have a website yet, but I recently hooked myself up to work on yet another CI/CD solution. Hear me out before you say "booring!".
What if you could migrate to a CI/CD that is better to fit your organization _without_ changing any existing definitions?
What if your new fancy CI/CD could support your existing github-actions/bitbucket pipelines/circleci.yml definitions right out of the box?
And what if you could progressively migrate to some new/other format that fits your needs better without having to create multi-year organization wide migration to the "new and better CI"™, only to do it _yet again_ once vendor goes out of business?
So that's my idea. I admit, the endeavor is really big, since supporting multiple formats which often don't have direct equivalents between each other seems like a really hard thing to do. But I strongly believe this is real problem, because according to my n=1 experience, every organization sooner or later faces this challenge, and the fact that all vendors force you to migrate to their custom format for defining, what is essentially a DAG of tasks is outrageous to me.
But boy how much the mounting system costs - it's at least 3 times the cost of the panes if you buy them in 2xN or 4xN bulk and I'm excluding labor here.