I am sure that I can't explain a lot of feelings I am feeling and neither am I comfortable to share this on a forum for all people to see and judge which is why I was scared in the first place to write that comment as now me backing up can be seen as something weird :/ when all I want to do is stay in touch with you and other people and create a community centered around open heart discussion of foss and how to spread the word now and to have a plan of action that I/others can implement when I once get into college or maybe something different, I am not sure.

I hope you can keep in touch with me on signal if the mail isn't working, its on my about me in HackerNews.